Epiphany has been on my mind a lot over the past 3-4 weeks, both in terms of "THE" revealing of the Christ to the Magi as well as the many ways people experience a personal epiphany.
It's a wonderful thing to encounter the Christ...to experience his presence...to even be surprized by him, finding him (or being found by him) when we weren't expecting to (cf. Jesus' encounter with the widow from Nain - Lk. 7:11-17). Sometimes the way I've seen the charismata operate has been like "mini-epiphanies" -- when it's as if my spiritual "light-bulb" turns on, and I recognize that the Lord has just spoken to us or touched our lives deeply (I often "recognize" the operation of spiritual gifts AFTER they've been manifested).
But what of those times when we're "expecting" to experience or encounter the presence of Jesus, only to sense or discern that he's not there? I'm not suggesting (in case you're wondering) that somehow the omnipresence of God is compromised, but simply that God's activity and blessing isn't being witnessed. There seems to be a mystery here. God is omnipresent, yet somehow the concept of "Ichabod" (the glory has departed) can also (simultaneously) be true.
Have you ever been to a church service, or listened to a teaching, or even read something that you yourself had written and thought: "God just isn't in this"? It's a reverse epiphany -- a realization that what I have presumed to be blessed by God, seems to be void of his blessing. Is that completely crazy? Am I nuts? Or is there some truth in this?
In their best-selling book, Experiencing God, Henry Blackaby and Claude King encourage believers to "find out where God is at work, and then join him in that work." Such a notion suggests that God is not "working" everywhere (e.g. in every "ministry" or "project"). In our quest to align ourselves with what God's doing in our world, will we not likely discover activities that God isn't in? Might we be surprized in some cases? Are we open enough, sensitive enough, and courageous enough to acknowledge such reverse epiphanies? And shouldn't we, as Christ-followers, then be eager to respond accordingly, so as to "keep in step with" the Spirit?
And one final curiosity -- if we DO occassionally experience such reverse epiphanies, how might we "test" them, in order to protect ourselves from erring?